September 04, 2011

My life is eating me alive!

 My life is eating me alive.
For three years since we started our disability ministry I've been teaching Sunday school, many Wednesday night semesters, coordinating extended session, teaching VBS and finding helpers, planning Luke 14 with my friend, and coordinating fellowships and the disability ministry council. And serving on our women's council as a childcare coordinator.  I don't say any of this to toot my own horn.  I've loved what I've been able to do in these ministries!  But I. am. TIRED!  Our home boat is getting rocked enough here with schooling two now, watching the extra kids to pay off our lingering credit card and medical bills, and wading through life's challenges. 

I want my kids to remember a mama who was present, cheerful and energetic.  I want to train my kids to serve alongside me (instead of sitting in childcare while I attend a meeting about serving).  And I want to have the time to meet needs (while including my children) as they arise.  I've been hanging in there asking for help for over a year now, but I know it's time to step down and trust that the help will come or not, and life will go on anyway.

So I resigned from almost everything this week!   :weight off my back:   I'll still teach Sunday School and help some with our disability ministry, but I sent an email resigning from women's ministry and another one handing off all staffing to the people who staff the typical classrooms!   

What a relief!  
All I have to do is manage my home, the kids who come to it, home school and teach Sunday School.  
That sounds so doable! 


Marcy said...

I did the same thing this summer. I stepped down from directing the homeschool co-op at our church (we're not even participating this semester), church nursery service, and planning field trips. Now Ben and I have time for service together, and serve we will!

Good for you, friend. Reprioritizing isn't always easy, but it's sometimes necessary!

Sarah said...

I know I don't know you very well, but I just want to say that you made a good decision. Your family is your most important ministry. It pains me to see children whose parents put serving others above teaching, training, and investing in them.

God bless!

Anonymous said...

Way to go! I am happy you have some relief!!

Miranda said...

Wow, you were one busy girl!

Love your blog, by the way. :o)

Leslie said...

I'm proud of you for doing this! (((Melissa)))

Hugs to you!